LADIDA 6

always been put second to someone or something.
always been treated like crap.
always been taken for granted.

well i say no more.
no more.

thanks for waking me up.
no more mr. nice guy.

disdain those who treat you like crap.
wouldn’t you agree.

School’s over.
Jobs are coming in.
My health is not doing any better.
Panadol seems nowhere at reach.
My eyes are burning.
My head is pounding.
My concentration lost.
Phlegm is filling up my nose.
My throat dried up like an empty well.
Sleep is a luxury.

I am pilling up my time with people and plans.
Becoming a teacher to a ‘cock up’ girl.
Hopefully she learns something.

My newest assistant took this picture of me.
Quite well done actually.
Learning fast my young padawan.

My Napfa test for NS is later at 7.30am.
Wish me luck.
Just keep running.

They say life works in a funny way.
Expect the unexpected.
Such a commonly used phrase these days.
I know not of what my future holds.

All I know is that,
when she’s near,
my heart beats faster,
my palms water just a little.
my eyes wander to nowhere else.
fixated to her lovely brown eyes.
gazing into them like an endless abyss.
falling in deeper as her smile lightens up her face.
falling in love her her all over again.
every bit of anger and sadness seems to vanish.

She’s everything to me.
My all.
Nothing seems to be too much to do.

You made me fall.
Every single day.
Hating you is impossible.
It is not even a viable course of action.

Now i’m hung over you.
You’re in my thoughts every single day.
In my dreams.
and in my heart.

india lima yankee.

Get it together you pussy.
Enough of that pathetic crying and whinning.
Pucker up!

Well, since i’m done with all my assessments and stuff, i’m really kinda VERY free now. So maybe i’ll use this time thats been blessed upon me to do something useful for a change. Writing theories, manifestos and working on my portfolio.

Well, i’ve really got to sit down and plan my time well. Not much time till NS calls upon me. And b4 i get confined in a stupid military regiment, i would want to at least get my foundation for my career done. No more playing around. Time to get serious. Work it farhan!

Well,

I redid my iPOD touch ads and made it into a James Bond Parody!
Gonna end sch soon.
Finally…

Oh thanks to everybody who helped me these past few months for my shoot! Really appreciate it!
Love you guys!

Model: Azmi
Assistant: Yazid

As i look through my friendster and facebook account and skim through old photos uploaded by my friends, i smile.
I smile knowing that i have friends whom i had created memories with.
Some good, some bad.
But none that i will forget.

I am tempted to write a whole essay on how much i miss them and i how much i hope things will never change but i know that an essay wun do me any good. I have to put in the effort to make sure they stay special to me.

To all my friends out there, I know i haven’t been there much for you guys. I’m sorry.
If i dun text msg you, you’d noe i have lost your contact.
SO PLEASE EMAIL ME!

Well, i’ll leave u with two photos i think i look good in. ahahha!

Smoking is GOOD! Gees! Why didn’t I start smoking? I WONDER!

On 1st April, I forgot that it was april fools day! ahah.. i was soooo engrossed in my work lah! ahaha.. but i did get to prank a few pple after a reminder from heleyna that it was actually 1st april.

Some were tricked! most were not… aha!

Oh some i forgot to finish the prank with coz i was too tired and fell asleep.

Aha! To Cheryl Lio, i wasn’t actually gonna jump. But aww.. so sweet of u to call me at like 1am or so to make sure that i was ok. I’m sorry, i was already fast asleep by then. Was in a blur when i picked up the phone.

My girlfriend is like the sweetest girl ever!
I so love her even more now. Ahh.. just can’t wait to like be older.

Today i played a prank successfully on her!
AHHA! She really thought that i was going to jump!
Her prank kinda flopped coz i threw her off balance..
aww.. haha.. nice try dear, maybe next yr?

Met up with her for a while b4 her religious class.
She got me coke and old chunkie and a card w/a plastic heart made out of a straw.
OMG! SOOO SWEET LUH!
I was like smiling at her the whole time.
I so love her luh.

I can’t stop smiling.
I love her soo much.
now i’m missing her soo much..
i just wanna hug her now!

ZOMG!
12hrs left till final critique!
I’m in dire need of coke!
Gah!

hate this feeling!
Love stress.
Need coke!

Will someone please get me coke!
I need coke!

Working impossibly against time.
I just need coke.

zomg!
12hrs left!